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Every word that they speak, glances they make toward me
The way they're eyes initiate rumors being told,
Make my head swirl, turn, spin, I'm going to burst.
They're watching me.
Talking about me.
Just leave me alone, please.
I can't stand the way they seem to judge me,
As if their ever glimpse seems to say
She's ugly, annoying, shut up.
Self centered, why are you here? - leave.
She's kidding herself. Pathetic, and knows it.
As if I'm trying to fit in to the big crowd, with voices
Whispers filling my ears, engulfing me in sounds
I don't want to hear. Quiet, quiet, quiet, that's all I ask.
Is it so wrong of me to want to be wanted?
To feel like I'm not being judged, like no one hates me
Stop looking at me, don't look at me, I'll look away instead.
All their eyes are on me, I'm in the center now,
Surrounded, I can't escape, take me away from this feeling
I won't make it out,
Can't take it, not forever, not anymore.
Can't someone take me out of here?
I can't speak, the words get lost as they reach the tip of my tongue
Breathing doesn't always come naturally to me,
Inhale, exhale, inhale, exhale, I've already forgotten the rhythm.
My heart beat fastens to a pace I no longer understand
Don't understand how it can take this much longer
Rocking back and forth, back and forth, the rhythm soothes me slowly.
People talking to me, their words just get scrambled as I try to take them in
My thoughts won't slow down, no matter how hard I beg them.
I'm numb, don't feel your touch as you grab me
Feeling as though I might very well pass out right here.
You just can't comprehend, my anxiety will always get the best of me.
Literature
anxiety
its not that i am
mean, or cruel
even though i am,
a bit.
i am just so frightened
that
you will disappear.
im talking about all of you
about everything
about all things
rocks, the sky
asphalt, steel
fire, pearls
blood, and bone
all might dissolve
like memories
from a dream
the fear is crushing
taste could be burned away
and sight imprisoned
motion concludes
and potential energy is expended
but existence
is eternal
what is shall be
a rose is a rose is matter and energy
neither created
nor destroyed
everything exists
it won't just
go bloop
and disappear forever
right?
but i fear it-
(the fear it
scratches at
Literature
Anxiety
There is a freight train inside my ribcage
And it pounds at the walls
Shredding my dignity to pieces
This anxiety is scratching the chalk boards
Peeling away at the rooftops
It never leaves me alone
I am left with spider webs on my tongue
One bullet for one mind
A one way ticket to the unknown
Tonight I pray to a God I do not believe in
For some type of relief
To help my soul from melting
Literature
Anxiety
I sat alone another day.
The world was moving all around me,
but it seemed as if my life was in a standstill.
The doctors say its anxiety.
Everyone thinks anxiety means nervousness or fear,
but it is deeper than that.
Anxiety holds you prisoner.
You can't leave your house.
Ding
Dong
Ding
Dong
The doorbell rings but I can't answer.
There is too much fear inside.
You can't answer the phone.
Ring
Ring
Ring
"Telephone for you!" my family yells. I
tell them to say that I will call back, but I won't.
You can't eat.
Chomp
Bite
Chew
No, not me. The anxiety
even controls that. All the pain rushes back up with
every little thi
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This is what I feel on a daily basis. It doesn't matter if they're looking at me, talking to (or about) me, I still feel like they're judging me. Like everyone suddenly hates me. My fears tend to overtake me. I get anxiety attacks constantly. There's really no way to explain what's it's like to have a fear that engulfs you in itself, overtakes your life, becomes you. No, there's really no way to explain my anxiety disorder.
Might rewrite this in time.
Might rewrite this in time.
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"She's ugly, annoying, shut up.
Self centered, why are you here? - leave.
She's kidding herself. Pathetic, and knows it."
Exactly what I felt today.
Self centered, why are you here? - leave.
She's kidding herself. Pathetic, and knows it."
Exactly what I felt today.